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Monday, May 12, 2008

Marsha, Marsha, Marsha!

As I was paging through the Free Press this morning, I came across this satirical cartoon, and stopped in my mindless reading tracks.

How true. How sadly true.

I have been so very self absorbed these past few weeks. MY problems are more significant than yours. MY situation with Ellie's surgery trumps anything *you* could possibly be going through. ME, ME, ME.

My life is so very good. I am blessed beyond measure and the mere fact that we can even consider costly non-life-saving surgery for our daughter is an incredible gift. We could sell our house, collect the equity to pay for Ellie's surgery, rent a one-bedroom apartment and STILL live a financially better life than 90% of the world's population. We still wouldn't be faced with the question of where our next meal would come from, or how we'd be able to afford clean drinking water.

I hate how easily I get consumed in my selfishness. I hate how easily I forget how good I've got it. I hate how easily I succumb to the pressures of consumerism and want more, more, more.

I've really tried to take myself off the pedestal today. I don't deserve to be there. It's amazing how thinking about and praying for others can calm my heart. For the first time in a week, I've really felt as though things will work out with Ellie's surgery; that we'll come up with the money, and that it'll be okay.


Laurel said...

I too pondered how sad and true that cartoon was when I was paging through the Free Press. It does put life into perspective doesn't it?

Anonymous said...

Hi. I was looking on here to see if you had an email address and did not see it. I would love to talk to you about your daughter. I have a special needs child also who is 2 and has no diagnosis yet, but they have been throwing out CP for the last year. My email address is I would love to chat.

Jessica said...

I'm right there with you. I think all special needs momma's do it. I sit with all of our medical bills and think, ****! What are we going to do? But, we do have a roof over our head, we drive nice cars, eat good/heatlhy meals, etc. Thanks for pointing out that we should be thankful for the little things too! Thats what I got out of that. You're always great at bringing me back to the level I should be on! haha I've been recently whining about paying for school, yet just spent 5 grand on boobs. Go figure....